Readers, a7ibkom.. Im sorry but i've been through so much lately. I just needed to get stuff out of me, so dont continue reading this if ur not in the mood to hear me ramble!
i love u but i hate u.. i love the way u make me feel when ur around me, even though u tend to piss me off all the time. The way ur able to control every bit of my nerves and change my mood instantly. I hate that u sometimes take advantage of this and hurt me when ur mad about something that has nothing to do with me.. "Ana asif, wallah ma kan qasdi.. Bs kint minqath min obooy.." or sometimes "min omy" or "min il jam3a" and it goes on and on with the people eli qatheenik.. Inzain ana shako? Tell me, ANA shako? Nafseetik it9eer khara o u begin to spark up conflicts with me.. what the hell is wrong u bipolar freak?
I know u love me, I've seen u do things that no one has ever done before. Bs amout w a3arif laish it9eer insan thany lama it3a9ib? I hear ur mom screaming all the time when we're on the phone, and i know how annoying that is. I know how it feels to have all doors close in ur face and feeling stuck in a depressing position. But just tell me, is that why ur like this?
We have our whole future planned out, and its official that I'm yours and ur mine. The love we have for each other doesnt imply a normal relationship, i actually see a future with u.. That never happened with ANYONE before, take my word for it. I went and did crazy things for you, i defend you, stand in the way of my family, friends, and life, just for you, I lose everything I ever wanted just because you dont want it. Kil il nas tgooli inik ma tistahil, but i went against them and fought for what we had, i fought for all those years we spent together, i stood up and i FOUGHT! I cant believe i actually fought for what you now, threw away.
Stubby :)
